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A Test of Faith
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madaboutitWho: Mad Sweeney, the Novice and YOU
When: August
Where: All over the Brigantine
Warnings: Mental health, substance abuse, self-harm, violence
What fresh fucking Hell is this? Well, at least he’s not in Nothingness. Hopefully that’s something. It’s hard to tell if this is more of the same or something worse. All Sweeney knows is he needs a fucking smoke.
He pulls the cigarette down from behind his ear and presses it between his lips. His hand slips into his pocket to fish for his lighter. It’s not there.
His brow lowers. Instinctively, his other hand checks its side. Nothing. Jacket pockets. Nothing. Panic starts to set in. He does a second pass with more urgency.
Nothing.
Fuck.
Sweeney takes the cigarette out of his mouth with a heavy sigh. Tucking it behind his ear, he impulsively seeks his flask to take the edge off.
Nothing.
”FUCK.”
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He needs as much assistance as he’s able to come by, if only to help him stay focused on getting through his bad patches and figure out his way around the ship. When he’s able to do so, he makes great effort to find the other Barge passengers, seemingly driven to keep seeking one more every time he finds one.
However, it’s apparent that in the wake of his magic no longer being suppressed, his Bad Luck is catching up with him. It makes everything more challenging.
Unfortunately, the Deacon seems to think his Madness is a blessing, a spiritual journey to be explored on the way to self-actualization. Which roughly translates to Him being willing to do fuckall to help Sweeney stabilize as his Curse creeps back up on him. His fits become more common, and he’s taken to self-medicating whenever he’s able to locate one of his bottles.
It doesn’t help. His fits are getting worse. Longer and more intense, he’s doing his best to stay present. Sweeney’s fighting to find a way around the Deacon’s encouragement of his Madness so he can manage to function, but it’s a sisyphean task.
Please note if you’d like to play with any particular aspect:
a) Clarity - Moments between episodes where he’s fully functional and conversational.
b) Madness - He's succumbing to his Curse; his mind gets caught up in memories of various incarnations, doomed to live them repeatedly, substituting and overlapping current experiences with those of the past.
c) Volatility - Whether it’s detox, his slipping mind, or just plain ol’ stress, sometimes he can’t control himself. He’s prone to impulsiveness, aggression, and violence.
d) Bad Luck - Bad luck's a bitch, and sometimes there's splash damage if one's standing too close. There are times when bad things happen to good (or not so good) people. It can manifest in countless ways to inflict on your character; let your imagination run wild.
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When: August
Where: All over the Brigantine
Warnings: Mental health, substance abuse, self-harm, violence
What fresh fucking Hell is this? Well, at least he’s not in Nothingness. Hopefully that’s something. It’s hard to tell if this is more of the same or something worse. All Sweeney knows is he needs a fucking smoke.
He pulls the cigarette down from behind his ear and presses it between his lips. His hand slips into his pocket to fish for his lighter. It’s not there.
His brow lowers. Instinctively, his other hand checks its side. Nothing. Jacket pockets. Nothing. Panic starts to set in. He does a second pass with more urgency.
Nothing.
Fuck.
Sweeney takes the cigarette out of his mouth with a heavy sigh. Tucking it behind his ear, he impulsively seeks his flask to take the edge off.
Nothing.
”FUCK.”
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I: Week 1 - Exploration and Detox
It’s a rough go of things. Losing access to both alcohol and tobacco cold turkey after countless years is less than ideal. The violation of his Hoard only makes things worse. Sweeney does his best to explore his new prison, but he spends a fair bit of time on the floor of the cabin that he’s taken, shaking as his body fights through its bullshit.He needs as much assistance as he’s able to come by, if only to help him stay focused on getting through his bad patches and figure out his way around the ship. When he’s able to do so, he makes great effort to find the other Barge passengers, seemingly driven to keep seeking one more every time he finds one.
II: Week 2 - Adjustment
Coming through the other side of his physical challenges, Sweeney’s learning more about the Brigantine and his place on it. He’s committed to the same thing he was on the Barge; graduating and getting the fuck off of it. He’ll do what he has to, including socializing, both with familiar faces and strangers alike. Surely, he can’t be that far away from it. Everyone keeps telling him he’s so close.However, it’s apparent that in the wake of his magic no longer being suppressed, his Bad Luck is catching up with him. It makes everything more challenging.
III: Week 3 - Adaptation and Slipping
Sweeney’s become aware that the nets pull up people’s shit, and along with it, his shit. He spends as much time as he’s able helping haul nets onto the deck, hurriedly digging through them for his belongings.Unfortunately, the Deacon seems to think his Madness is a blessing, a spiritual journey to be explored on the way to self-actualization. Which roughly translates to Him being willing to do fuckall to help Sweeney stabilize as his Curse creeps back up on him. His fits become more common, and he’s taken to self-medicating whenever he’s able to locate one of his bottles.
IV: Week 4 - Acceptance
He’s learned the flow of things. Get up, go to work. Nets up, goods down, stash his stuff. He goes to sermons, he tries to maintain a sleep schedule and eat regularly.It doesn’t help. His fits are getting worse. Longer and more intense, he’s doing his best to stay present. Sweeney’s fighting to find a way around the Deacon’s encouragement of his Madness so he can manage to function, but it’s a sisyphean task.
Please note if you’d like to play with any particular aspect:
a) Clarity - Moments between episodes where he’s fully functional and conversational.
b) Madness - He's succumbing to his Curse; his mind gets caught up in memories of various incarnations, doomed to live them repeatedly, substituting and overlapping current experiences with those of the past.
c) Volatility - Whether it’s detox, his slipping mind, or just plain ol’ stress, sometimes he can’t control himself. He’s prone to impulsiveness, aggression, and violence.
d) Bad Luck - Bad luck's a bitch, and sometimes there's splash damage if one's standing too close. There are times when bad things happen to good (or not so good) people. It can manifest in countless ways to inflict on your character; let your imagination run wild.
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